2007 August - Sensibility and movement

Table 1: Sensibility disturbances – a selection

-          An invisible ant slowly crawling, starting at the little finger, past the hand inside, up the inside of the arm.

-          Lightnings appear in front of my eyes.

-          My whole body feels like wrapped into cotton or covered with sheet metal.

-          A dagger pokes itself into my earlobe, twists slowly around and disappears painfully, just to return every once in a while, like I'm struck by lightning out of the blue. This dagger can show up in other body parts, too, and it can cause an uncontrollable twitch.

-          Velvet or linen, it all feels the same.

-          There's an iron plate nailed down on the sole of the foot.

-          The slightest touch releases an electrical shock in the whole body, or just on one side.

-          I see how a fly crawls over my leg, but I can't feel it.

-          An army of ants marches speedily from my left foot up to my belly button, and back down on the other half of the body, jumps over the gap between my feet, and starts from the beginning; sometimes slowly, sometimes in a hurry, intense or discreet, for minutes, hours, days, sometimes weeks long.

-          Feet like ice cubes, nevertheless they feel hot from the outside, or they burn hot on the inside and are ice cold on the outside.

-          Something kicks me into my stomach.

-          Water, lukewarm, ice cold, or burning hot, runs down the body or just body parts, in different speed.

-          Black dots, variously formed, different quantities, move together with the movement of my eyes.

Suddenly, me doing kitchen work, everything turns red, a deep cut into my hand, and I haven't even noticed.

Table 2: Running feelings

I move like

-          walking upstream, or against a storm.

-          in tough mud.

-          I had lead on my feet.

-          I'd walk on meter high stilts.

-          being in quicksand.

-          being in soft soap.

-          being on an extreme bumpy road.

-          being on skates.

-          being drunk.

It pulls me off of my feet, my extremities are being held in a vice-like grip, and every day is different, and still the same. Just affected ones know about these or similar feelings.

Translated from German into English by Regina E. 2007 ©

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