2008 December - Challenges

You know how they say "…but you look so good!"

Anyway, this is about my past weeks. If you've wondered why I comment hardly ever anymore, or why my status' is more indifferent than anything else lately, keep on reading.

There are two things going on in my life at the moment we speak.

No. uno (Italian for one):

I am on my monthly.

And yes, I need things kinky. So it is with aunt flow as well…

My period lasts, as of today, exactly   T H I R T Y F I V E   days. *sigh*

On top of that, for the past three days I am not just flowing, it is pouring out of me! Which means I'm using a fresh night pad every 1-2 hours (usually one lasts for 24 hours with me). I feel it running out of me. It is so embarrassing how you can't sit, get up, sit back down, walk, walk stairs, let alone ride the bike and yesterday evening I'm not sure if I've stained my neighbor's chair while teaching her. I gotta check on that one later on today *ashamed*

The most disturbing fact about this is, that all my gynaecologist did is put me back on the birth control pill to regulate the period some and to insist it just   C A N N O T   be the meds against MS I'm taking, it is simply that I'm obese. *watery eyes*

But the description slip that comes with the Copaxone says it could cause problems with that and my doctor just blames it on my weight!

It just feels so 'nice' to be told so.

Anyway, no. two:

For those of you who followed my ranting and venting at Stan's page know already. For all the others, as you might know I'm injecting Copaxone for about three years in the meantime. I did so solely into my upper legs. And… those gave up on me now. The skin is harmed so much (within) that I couldn't place the needle anywhere anymore.

So I have to go with the flow now *lol* *sarcastic* and rotate the injection areas on: the back upper arms (6 spots), the stomach (6 spots) and the butt/hip area (another 6 spots). Today is day   F O U R T E E N   . No matter where I stung myself with the injector so far, it hurt, it swell, it itched, it got red, it bruised, it built lumps inside the skin and it even started to bleed instantly.

At one point (the fourth time I stung into the arms) both of my arms turned numb that very night, which was very scary for me (two days ago), because that's how it all began, how I found out I have Multiple Sclerosis in 2005. My right arm turned totally lame.

So I believe there's no need to explain, that each evening is mere torture for me, having to worry about what'll happen next.

Other than that…

I can sleep extremely well these days. ;-/ Because all this is a draining experience for me, all that blood loss must be exhausting for the body! Luckily the next month's BCP will have to be started on Saturday. At least it should stop by then, if not sooner. One evening I even went to bed at 9 pm. Go figure!

Anyway, it's my blog and I felt like sharing.

Thanks for paying attention guys (well, girls).

I'll try to manage my way through the day now, 'good looking' as always! Oh, I will get my nails done today. At least one uplifting event for me   ;-P